Submissive/Slave Please introduce yourselves here

[yama]

I have just joined. I am Yama, a girl of 19, with strong submissive inclinations. I had been weaving masochist daydreams even before I learned that there was such a thing as masochism. I didn't mentioned them to anybody, until I made friends with Lila, a girl about my age, with whom I had intimate talks which revealed that she was willing to humiliate and punish me. And so she has been doing since more than a year now, and I love it very much. She enjoys it, too.

We are not part of the BDSM subculture, what I know about it I learned online. I find that our dom/sub relationship differs strongly from the "official" forms. I never addressed Lila as "Mistress" and she doesn't consider me her slave. She doesn't want to control my whole life. I don't wear a collar. What she enjoys is humiliating and punishing me, and she makes a good job of it, even if she does it with a sweet mocking laugh and talks to me all the time as to a good friend. She handles the whip well, my body is rarely without welts, she spits into my mouth and makes me drink of the water she soaked her feet in. I am delighted to endure it and I laugh with her, except when I am moaning and screaming under her strokes. She is often compelled to tie and gag me. It has never occurred to us to use any safeword, I simply trust her. We learned to satisfy each other sexually, even is the essence of our relationship isn't that but my humiliation. I obey her, of course, and I would obey her is she wanted to control me much more. However, I don't feel a slave and I think I don't need that feeling.

It doesn't mean that I reject more humiliation. You are free to call me any degrading name, I will thank you. And you are free to give me a virtual slap or kick any time, I will remain meek and respectful. I don't feel a slave but I am ready to be an online slave if somebody wants me to. Lila isn't jealous at all. She has my body to torture whenever she wants to.

Thank you for your kind attention.

Humbly

Yama