When did you know?

[Mdv8ed]

For me it started very early. Simply pretending with my dolls and barbies, bondage always fascinated me. Somehow either they or i would get tied up.
Then it was any movie or show where someone would get kidnapped, tied, cuffed etc. would make me flip out. I think i finally figured it out when i met a guy in high school who would bring handcuffs in all the time where i finally knew. I remember finding my very first bdsm story and the rest is history

[mzkkbprmt]

I suppose I first had thoughts of stuff that would be considered BDSM when I was 6. This was mainly ideas of imprsionment, and being someone's prisoner. I have always had an interest in cages and collars since that age. Also some bondage ideas, particularly what I now know would be considered mummification, and being punished (though not involving physical pain).

I actually lost these feelings entirely once puberty started. They might never have come back if I hadn't joined an infantilism and diaper fetishist site. I realised that there was something more than just that which I was ... missing. Talking to some friends from that site it was suggested I look at BDSM.

I did and I realised that I was a sub. The things that I had had interests in when I was younger returned, and there are other things I have come across with research that appeal. I'm not into SM though, or at least physical stuff. Verbal abuse would be great, and there is some physical punishment I would be willing to take for the humiliation value, though not much. So you could say it started when I was 6. Though as a sexual thing and as something I have some vague understanding of it started about a month ago.