Firstly many thanks to all that replied, a little support went a very long way with finding my courage to submit.

after spending 48 hrs handing complete control to Mr B******d i can truely say its been a most enlightening, occasionally humilliating and frustrating, experience.

im sure its not for some, and at times i was sure it wasnt for me.
its another experience i have survived and have had the chance to thank Mr B******d for.