i want to thank you Midnytedreams and TheSeeker for your kind words.. Who knows maybe one day i may reopen that part of me but right now i feel it is for the best it stays shut... at least until such time the pain washes away and i can once more give my all to one that truly wants it .. Until then i revert back to a vanilla life that way there is no disappointment or hurt to be added to the pain i feel now.
Thank you again
hugs
snow