I saw this thread, the headline "victim of abuse" caught my attention. As i spent some time reading through.
First of all denuseri, i want to thank you for starting this thread.
I think this had really brought up some things that i have burried.
denuseri, i am amazed by your strength and amazed by who you have became. And along with others who have shared their experience of abuse. Thank you for being brave to reach out for others who needs a hand.
I myself have been abused in many different ways by many people that I have trusted and let into my life.
I was a daddy's little girl until my parents divorced when I was 6. My mother just kinda took her freedom way to seriously. Started drugs and drinking heavily. I am not going to go on in details of what happened to me. It all started out by sexual abuse at age 9 til i was 15 by my mom's boyfriends, yes plural there.
I have been molested, raped, beatened, verbally abused you name it.
My mother and I never had a mother/daughter relationship that I always yearned for.
I was in a relationship for 8 years who had always put me down. Embarresses me in public. He beats me, controls everything I do. I couldn't even wipe my own ass with out him watching me. After 8 years, my kids and I packed only our clothes we could take and left him and everthing we own behind. We moved to another state to start a new life. My kids were abused as well. I feared for their lives so it was all it took for me to build courage to leave him.
I have forgiven all the ones who hurt me but will never forget what they had done to me. I also thank each and every one of my abuser for making me strong inside. For making me who I am today.
I am a survivor. I believe things happen for a reason. And that we go through this and become strong and smart and help the ones who really needs it.