"I do not give a shit.

I know what I want and will not settle for a fabrication, a game, I want the real deal be it face to face or be it online and I am willing to wait for what I want."

Good for you! and no it isn't too much to ask for. What you're describing is almost exactly what Master and I have. Unfortunately there are a lot of people on both sides of the slash who either make things out to be different or completely hide things all together.

I do wish you much luck in your search... Master may have a few names if you're interested.