IT seems that I have always had to be the one in control. of my work, my family and that ass that I was married to. I never felt comfortable in that role other than at work. I knew that there was something different about me for years, but did nothing to act on it. I was stuck in Vanillaville and unsatisfied and frustrated. WHen I approached my ex about maybe trying a few things he was so against it, it never got discussed again. when I had been away from him and got my mind cleared of all the garbage, i realized that my relationship what that of two subs no dom. he was just a male sub in denial.
I am now fully researching and reading, asking questions of experienced doms. THANKYOU ALL THE SIRS! I still have no real life experience to speak of, and am looking to find a dom locally who has the experience and patience to train a very willing and trainable sub.