Do not feel pain

[Ozme52]

I suggest you need a dominant who is more interested in exerting his dominion over you with words, body control (such as hands in your hair, seeing you exert yourself for him, perhaps positions,) who enjoys fetish photography and tableaus, one who takes pleasure from your sexual obeisance and your general obedience.

A dom who prefers a pain response will not enjoy you as he would someone with a low pain threshold. Certainly you shouldn't be with a sadist, you will just be a frustration to him, perhaps even a challenge which can come to no good end.

You need to find a good match... not a careful dominant (in this case.) If you already have a dominant you adore, you need to discuss this with him in light of these revelations... and he has to decide if he can live without play that can cause body damage.

I see no good coming from an attempt to "sensitize" you to pain.

[13'sbadkitty]

I suggest you need a dominant who is more interested in exerting his dominion over you with words, body control (such as hands in your hair, seeing you exert yourself for him, perhaps positions,) who enjoys fetish photography and tableaus, one who takes pleasure from your sexual obeisance and your general obedience.

A dom who prefers a pain response will not enjoy you as he would someone with a low pain threshold. Certainly you shouldn't be with a sadist, you will just be a frustration to him, perhaps even a challenge which can come to no good end.

You need to find a good match... not a careful dominant (in this case.) If you already have a dominant you adore, you need to discuss this with him in light of these revelations... and he has to decide if he can live without play that can cause body damage.

I see no good coming from an attempt to "sensitize" you to pain.

i merely meant that to illustrate my process. for me it was a healing experience as i was disconnected from my body. i hope that it didn't sound as if i was saying more than this is my experience.

[spicennice]

13'sbadkitty, I absolutely understood it in that way. Thank you so much for your input it is very valuable. I have also just realized the implications of what you stated as far as my health and the lack of pain response. I don't think I would know if there was something wrong with me if it slapped me in the face. This is a pretty scary thing to realize. It helps me to understand a ton about my reactions to things in the past.

Oz, thank you so much for your suggestions. They are, as always totally sensible and I will absolutely incorporate them in the future if I need to. Thank you so much for helping.

[Ozme52]

i merely meant that to illustrate my process. for me it was a healing experience as i was disconnected from my body. i hope that it didn't sound as if i was saying more than this is my experience.

No issue with me... and I was addressing the OP, not commenting on the comments.