the listerine strips left on my nipples and then clamped were excruciating in a almost impossible for me to tolerate kind of way
i have had to write what i did wrong, why it was wrong and what it did to Him
the worst was having to behave completely vanilla towards Him no collar, no Master i was not allowed to submit in any way at all...this was so hard! i was in my head thinking " You can't force me not to submit" "You just won't know" until i realized that even that was defiance. He gave me back my collar after i had suffered for a while, after i begged to submit to Him and truthfully that was the last intentionally defiant day i ever had. i learned to value my submission and His dominance as it doesn't have to be...not to say that i am not a brat in a playful way that He happens to enjoy...i just learned that always forcing His Mastery of me was in a way showing that maybe i didn't want it. sorry for the tangent, its just what came to mind.