I don't know if the abuse makes us comfortable in this lifestyle or that our sub traits make us easier prey as children. All I know is I am new to this and in the process of training with my Master I had recollections of abuse I had apparantly blocked out. Now I am wary about going into subspace because it seems when my defenses are down, my emotions about this abuse flow to the surface. Master was extremely caring and supportive of what I am going through and for that I feel grateful and lucky. But these revelations make me question if I should be going into this life with unresolved, newly-discovered abuse issues surfacing.