I wish I had away to delete this thread, no I haven't found the dom of my dreams and several Very Serious Discussions with D/s friends on and offline and the helpful advice I got from some strangers in chat have opened my eyes to the fact that I need to teach myself some things before I can ever ask someone to seriously help me control my life.
"What you do not find within, you will not find without"
I'm no longer seeking a serious relationship - I'm just not as ready as I thought I was. I would however love to make some friends both Dom and sub who can help me find myself on my journey.
Thanks for putting up with me,
-selkie