I also had trouble finding real satisfaction while masturbating. It's just not the same.

Anyway, if you're really interested in the tasking society post in this thread http://www.bdsmlibrary.com/forums/sh...e-Track-Access. You just have to ask to join as a taskee.

It may take a week or more before you get access. You'll have to check back once in a while. If you have trouble with it, send me a PM and I'll do my best to help.