hello all my name is ellie or emeralds.....im quite new to this and i guess still confused....i have a master but the relationship is rocky and i think temporary but is my first relationship of this type which i have been emotionally and physically attached tooo....and will be devastated when it ends..... i have had a mistress for a little while before who very flatteringly wants me back.......im, i guess, a little out of control of my feelings and desires... i find it hard to accept these feelings of submission and the desire to please my master and at times resent the instant pleasure it gives me... lol but only for a little while......i am struggling with this...and would appreciate the advice from others who have been here...