So sorry darlin' - big hugs. So it didn't work out - YOU still did it. You took a chance and "got into the water" (yes, picked that metaphor just for you). i'm proud of you. the 1st one is behind you

I'm scheduled to see my Master in mid Feb for the first time in 25 years. Yes, i'm worried. In fact sometimes i'm so scared i want to just say "forget it". Yes, it could be awesome, but it could also be a total bust that could break my heart in two. As my first Dom/sub relationship, i find i'm very raw and vulnerable to him.

But i just have to go, i have to put my best foot forward. If i don't, this one will wonder for the rest of my days.