I'm Vanderkatze - Kat for short. Female, submissive, early 20s - legal to drink, but Enterprise won't rent me a car (without me paying excessive fees). I can't remember a time when I *didn't* have submissive needs; the first time I consciously recall desiring being on the submissive end of power exchange is in preschool.

My awareness of it has only increased since then, although I didn't have a name for it - or the knowledge that I wasn't alone, and that the potential complement to my type existed - until I was 16 and stumbled across the film Secretary. Having re-watched it twice in the last week, it hit me how isolated I feel in this commonly vanilla world. I've had a couple of D/s partners, but neither stood the test of time. Beyond that, all of my boyfriends and girlfriends have been a very pure shade of vanilla, with the sole exception being a fellow submissive I dated for a (very short) while.

More than anything, I'm looking for a community. I'll likely find play partners - and maybe a real partner - where I am; the SF bay area is, fortunately, kind of a haven for this stuff. However, these aren't the sorts of topics I can bring up in casual conversations with my friends and expect any sort of knowledgeable feedback or support. Hence, my registration in the Library.