Hy all, first i registered, then i readed a lot of your opinions. It took a while to join your discussions, because my English isn't as far so good as it should be. This forums represent the most "real" comunity in lifestyle i could find on the net.
Something touched me really when I readed some threads from masterkurt, when he explained the kind of partner he lost.

I like the superiority of firmandconfident in threads like this one: http://www.bdsmlibrary.com/forums/showthread.php?t=4394
and the kind of answer submissivewife gave him.

We all are searching for something, usual strong emotions, a fulfilled life and satisfiing our needs, like in real life: something between joy and pain. Some of us can amplify the joy feeling pain and vice versa.
I am tendentially sadistic, control situations and my self very good, disagree all kind of brutality.
I live in Romagna, Italy, enjoyed BDSM in a relationship at it's best. But this is past.
Is it such difficult to explain that i enjoyed my tendences at its best with a partner i was emotionally involved? No it is not.
Usual people talk about lifestyle as it would be a fisical behavior, forgetting that this opens the door to strong feelings and unbelievable emotions.

I arouse when my sub-partner lets me feel her devotion and i literally "emotionally explode" when i may control her pain and submission. Stopped playing i feel like a king, massaging and licking her hurting body parts i feel extreme satisfaction and infinite respect for her.
Often people forget the deep devotion, courage and deep trust it needs to surrender in front of a partner to please him in everything letting him do things that go over your limits.
Discussion groups and forums are new for me, i am also strange to cybersex and email relations, but i have a good feeling in this group, because i see there is people like me inside. This only counts.

Now i hope it will not take me a half year to write my second post.