Silke,
<Sitting on the edge of the couch, pulling up the cover on Silke>

Yes, dommes think differently than subs. I've been on both sides of that fence, and both are difficult. My money is on this one: he wants to spend lots of time with you and feels a 30-second "hihowareya, talktoyalater" isn't fair to you; you need more and deserve more. That's where my head was when we we apart, anyway. Now that I'm on "this" side of the fence, even though we spend exactly as much time apart as we ever did before, it feels like for-EVER to me now. I spent all day Sunday hitting the email, hoping, praying, pleading for a response... nothing. I feel your pain.

As for an outlet, even if you think you can't write poetry, i strongly recommend it. it doesn't have to be "good," just from your heart. write words that come to your mind, in any order, any phrasing, spelling doesn't count. Fill the page and turn it. Fill the next one. It does not have to rhyme, or fit into any pattern at all. It doesn't have to be flowery, serious, or even coherent. It's words, from you. Don't throw it away, though. date it, put it away, then look at it much much later. You may find a phrase, a thought, an emotion, that you didn't recognize earlier. One rule: just write. I promise you it will help.

If you haven't been keeping up on Kate and I, we're new to this game, and learning every day. We recently swapped roles, mostly on a dare, and both discovered something amazing and joyous in the new position. I had assumed that after just a few days we would both grow bored and ask to swap back, but 3 weeks later, my mistress has asked me to re-draft our written agreement! !

Well, not to hijack, let's bring this back to the point: as an "individual who gives the gift of his submission on a daily basis to a dear trusted friend" (or IWGTGOHSOADBTADTF for short ha ha ha), i can assure you that time apart can be painful, drawn out, depressing, and just plain bad. I think of her almost constantly. I don't know I can comfort you any more than to offer my arms in a comforting hug, and offer a shoulder and an ear.

All the best,
Evan