my Master is in my thoughts every day too...And He is also very patient since He knows i am new to this and have never lived a bdsm life before...Never been chained,whipped,flogged,caned,caged etc etc...Off course we have had some sessions online and he has punished me too, but....whipping myself is not the same as if He does it since He would do it much harder and i probably would be chained up also....Same as chaining myself....i think it is a special and better feeling if the Master does it than if i do it myself.....i have known Him since January...Belonged to Him since February and proud of that....But i am not collared yet since we haven't met....i am grateful that He is patient with me but He doesn't give me so much tasks though...One of my kids lives with me and He really likes her.Makes my heart warm...