I was attacked and abused by a stranger as a child, and only recently have I been able to have it cross my mind and not feel total panic. I still have plenty of hate and anger. And I always think "if only I had done x, I could have avoided it." But this is not realistic, I was a little kid, how could I have known?
This phrase I saw recently applies "Some people are only alive because I can't afford a hit man".