Harlern--I have to second what Austerus said-please be careful. I know what it is to crave a Dom's touch, his voice, his ropes, . . . wait. let me focus here . . . okay, back under control. I have a Dom (sort of--it's complicated) and I miss and want him so badly it hurts--yes, it hurts not to be hurting--but safety first. Hang out with us for a while-there are some awesome folks here-and that can help you find the right Dom for you, really.
Not trying to discourage you; just want you to be safe. You owe that to yourself, too. Welcome to the family!