I feel totally incredible. It is the biggest high for me to be brought low, among all the things we do, either when he takes the power, when I give it up, or, usually, both at once. I don't know that I will explain it well enough to help you in your writing, but that is how it is for me- always feeling things and not able to explain them. As he walks into the room and I'm waiting on my knees, or he grabs me and forces me, in my head I have a feeling of "Yes, yes, yes, this, THIS, THIS" and I want it to be always and forever in that feeling. My knees get weak, I get wet, I feel at times a mist in my head. I can't maintain that high all the time; I don't know if anyone could. But as it happens as often as possible, and since it is always waiting there, just out of sight, and since he has the final decision in all things, although I may still express opinions and arguments, he decides ultimately whether to listen to me or not, and I am good with that, I consider that 24/7.