Quote Originally Posted by sickler View Post
Hi there,

Been on this website for a while now and often find myself wanting to post something but never really convincing myself to do so.

I find myself somewhat lost and confused by certain elements of my personality. There is a large part of me that feel attracted to humiliation with a deeper sadistic side - which until recently i wasnt really certain actually exists. Now i know it is there.

To add to my confusion I know that there are certain times where I switch into something completely different where I become rather masochistic... not so much that I am submissive but really masochistic.

I shy away from personal contacts due to this because I am afraid people wont be able to accept this part of me

I am not entirely certain what I expect to achieve from this post. But I guess this is my attempt to put it out there that I am not vanilla.... I have no idea what I am. I have no idea what to do... But its good to put it out there to people who might be able to advise me...
I am not sure if your confusion is that you have two sides, or that you are a BDSM person at all?

Your sides are ones that many people do have, you are certainly not alone in that! Many people are into pain play etc more than submission, there are many rooms in this house called BDSM and they are all ok.

As for having them both, that is also quite common. Don't worry.