I just started too. I am totally a sub, its what I desire. BUT, I tend to question everything. I have asked my Master to teach me how to let go of that. I'm sure he gets frustrated, but he is firm, and when I start asking too many questions he reminds me that I gave him my trust and that we have mutual respect. Although, I think he might be having to punish me today because once again, I asked too many questions.