I've refrained from responding for several reasons.

But perhaps 2 things need to be highlighted.

The first is sub-frenzy.

With acknowledging your submissiveness and then experiencing the physical expression of what has only been fantasies up to now, it is only natural that anything else would just not pass muster.
Wanting only BDSM-type sexual activity is thus natural.


Add to that finding someOne who take control without having to be told. And someOne who communicates their desires and seeing how you as a submissive brings fulfillment to His fantasies. Any new relationship has New Relationship Energy. (NRE). This is that high-level focus on each other.
Any relationship has this high level of initial growth and then usually tapers off.

Your marriage has obviously passed the NRE stage. But your relationship with your Dom has both sub-frenzy and NRE.
Both these make the pull toward your Dom so very strong.
But the warning is also...both sub-frenzy and NRE pass.

Of course, anything involving human emotion is not as clear cut as all that, but it may explain the strength of your feelings at the moment.