It is a big step to acknowledge that you " like the thought to lose all control".

A few words: I can't agree more with bekka: read, read, read. Some Doms should start knocking at your door right about now, offering to teach you. That's not wrong, you will learn a lot. But don't let that be a substitute for your own reading and study.
Don't let anyone convince you their way is the only or right way.

Learn what you enjoy. Learn what you like/dislike. This forum is full of really great advice and knowledge.

Being submissive is something so many people identify as being and yet it is also so intensly personal. You will, through time and knowledge of yourself find your balance.
This balance will be different to other submissive's balance. But that is ok.

And most most all: have fun. It might be a time of intensive learning for you, perhaps even some painful experiences, yes. But never forget to have fun.