Taming the beast- my transition from Dom to sub

[Chris the Great]

This is my journal to document my transition from dominance to submission. First, i should introduce myself a little. My wife and i have been married for 15 years and we've been BDSM lifestylers for several years. We began as a Master/slave relationship complete with a blood-signed contract, and after a year or so we relaxed into a D/s S&M agreement where I was the dominant male. Everything was fine until I began drinking again, and occasionally i became an overly dominant ass when drinking heavily and i lost Her trust. I'm still drinking, but not as heavily. We decided it was time for a change a couple of weeks ago and now i am Her submissive beast and She is my dominant Princess. We agreed on some basic rules and guidlines, and i was looking forward to the break from the responsibilities of dominance.

One of those rules was that i could not be aggressive sexually and take Her any ol' time i wanted. Instead, i have to be gentle and ask permisssion. Last week i forgot the rules, got carried away and continued aggressive advances even after She said to stop. She scolded me and insisted that i get 4 stripes from the cane (actually a plastic mini-blind rod that was once one of my favorite implements to wield). i obeyed and took my punishment, but to my surprise there was nothing fun or sensual about my punishment! I am a grown-ass man and a fairly big guy too! Strypi is only 4'9" but She laid into me with that cane real proper, and i *CRIED* Then She made me sit up on my knees and face her while She explained the rules to me. i was embarrassed, ashamed and ANGRY. i had to ask for a cool down break. i put on my Pantera Pandora radio station, cranked up the volume, did the dishes and pouted for an hour before i was able to apologize and thank Her for the punishment. That was a range of emotions that i never expected.

Since then i have been behaving much better. We rented a hotel room for a night and i got to be "let out of my cage" for the full moon. We had a full session complete with a paddling, the flogger, accupuncture of my penis, and then She let the beast ravage her. We decided to celebrate each full moon in a similar fashion.

That's all i have to report for now. Feel free to comment and i'll update this thread often if She approves.