thegirlwonder

In a related vein of the previous post: (and my thoughts are scattered today so bear with me)

There was a time (recent and not-so-recent) when i would beat myself up because i couldn't understand how i could live my life without believing in something. i grew up in and out of the bible belt, and unfortunately for me i came to be a bit of a cynic, so it didn't make my predicament any easier. There are days when i don't believe in the government, or God, or the worth of humanity, or anything that the rest of the world seems to put stock in.

But even on those days, i feel like i can still count on puppy kisses and the way my teapot whistles when it's ready. On days like that i just have to remember that i still believe in love.

i'm not just talking about the sexual side of things here, either. i feel like it's easier to look forward to and define love when i think about it in terms of a D/s relationship, but i'm surrounded by lots of other little examples. And those little examples support bigger ones, and so on, and before i know it i believe in something, even if it is love and i end up sounding like Bob Marley.

i'm not saying that BDSM is a religion; far from it. Hell, i barely know the meaning of the word. What i am saying is that for me, it has to mean a lot about love for it to be valid, which makes me wonder why vanilla people don't see that. How do you miss the trust and communication that has to happen in a D/s relationship? That's hard work in ANY relationship, and even i believe that. But i guess that's a discussion for another day.