fellintobed

At the dinner table tonight: Boyfriend, Bike Boy, the roommate of Boyfriend's crush (neither the roommate nor the crush know that I'm sleeping with Bike Boy), and me. Boyfriend cooked dinner, incredible from-scratch Japanese food, and afterwards we all watched a movie together. I have an agreement with Bike Boy that we not flirt openly, and tonight this meant that I was almost too overwhelmed with desire to even look him in the eyes. He texted me today that he bought a toy of some sort (it's a surprise) and some quality butt lube... my sex drive went through the roof with just one short text-message conversation. Meanwhile I'm on a day's forced orgasm denial from being rude to my Master, so there was no way to get myself off and relieve even a smidgen of tension...

...which leads to now, 2:30 in the morning, Boyfriend peacefully sleeping in the other room, me awake. Frustrated. Horny. Torn in three directions and wholly myself. I have no business surfing porn when I can't orgasm, but I'm doing it anyway. What's one more small torment right now?

Dreamy thoughts of a never-gonna-happen threesome are floating through my head in search of a reality they take place in.