Getting to know me
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, 07-02-2010 at 02:39 PM (1262 Views)
I was deighted to find that the site has a blog option for members. It seemed taking advantage of it would be a good way to allow others here, if interested, to get acquainted with me.
If you wish, you can read my introduction posted in the Submission Couch thread for general background information so I won't repeat all of that here.
The first thing that should be pretty evident is that coming up with a creative name for a blog is not one of my strengths. Candidly, I am not terribly creative in any respect. So I just decided to go with something rather obvious and hopefully at least some might find it witty...but I doubt it. haha
One of the ways of getting acquainted with others that I find interesting is learning either about their sexual fantasies involving their favored kinks or about the kind of BDSM play activities they find appealing. So that is the method by which you can expect to get acquainted with me, if you should choose to visit here regularly.
I will attempt to alternate them with each post to hopefully keep things interesting, but having more kink interests perhaps than fantasies I will reserve the right to write consecutive posts on kinks if I start to run low on fantasies to share. Personally I find that the fantasies of others are the more intriguing but then we have already established that I am not terribly imaginative, so work with me here. Also, from time to time don't be shocked to find me posting on something that is simply the product of a random thought about life or the lifestyle.
Moving right along, I have elected today to go with one of my BDSM interests. Techically two interests I suppose since the primary one is very much tied up with (pun intended) and related to the other. If you take a peek at my profile page, you wil discover that l listed "lingerie" (as in wearing it), as one of my interests.
Just so we understand each other, I am rather pernickity about exactly what wearing lingerie entails for me. When I speak of lingerie, my singular focus and point of reference is female panties since I have never worn any other type of female lingerie.
Not that I wouldn't be willing to experient with that with the right Domme, but I just haven't tried it to date. Another point to be made is that I am not into cross-dressing and so that isn't the catalyst for my lingerie interest.
Borrowing a noteable quote from Jerry Seinfeld, to avoid anyone feeling insulted, let me preface my next remark with, "not that there is anything wrong with that" but I personally am not of the sissy-type male sub variety. I love women in general, I adore them and I find it exquisitely fulfilling to cede authority to them, but I have never aspired to be female or to dress like one. I think it takes great strength to be a woman on any number of levels, and frankly I doubt I have that sort of strength. So I am perfectly satisfied with being male and am quite comforable with my masculinity. So you see, when it comes to me and female knickers, there is the rub.
I would be less than truthful if I didn't admit that I find the silky feel and look of female panties to be very pleasurable and well, sexy when wearing them. Yet in spite of that admission, I would not simply choose to don a pair of them for the simple sake of wearing them because that isn't the appeal they have for me. No, the appeal comes by way of being MADE to wear them by a strong, assertive, dominant woman.
I have long since understood why I find that pleasurable - it is the humiliation factor. Since I am an average, everyday guy, one that I doubt anyone but a truly intuitive, dominant woman would suspect of being submissive were they to meet me in real life, I think it is the very fact that I am comfortable with my maleness that makes being forced to wear female underwear something that I find intensely humiliating, but in a rather delicious sort of way.
In the past I was in a lenghty online relationship with a Mistress who discovered and exploited this naughty little aspect of me and trust me, even though she made me wear them habitually, the intense feelings that caused never grew less intense. We parted about a year ago and so even though I have quite an impressive number of pairs, I haven't had occasion to wear them since. Perhaps one day soon that will change.
The length of this has become insane so if you read this far my congratulations on your perservering spirit. Perhaps I should have left off with a simple intro and shared the interest in a subsequent post. But what is done is done and so I'll leave it as is and promise to try harder next time to accomplish a bit more brevity. In the mean time, for you intrepid souls that lasted to the bitter end, at least you have been rewarded by learning that two activities I find most appealing are lingerie and humiliation. Thank you for reading.