I have for a long time been aware that I have a side to me that I have never fully explored. I have had experiences with a bit of play in the bedroom with a couple of women, enough to let me know that i am very submissive. I have been in a very ordinary lesbian relationship for a few years, which ended recently, so I haven't had a chance for ages to sexually explore.
When I think of a woman having total control over me, tending to her every need and worshipping her, being punished when I do something wrong, it makes me feel warm and safe and very turned on. I want to explore this submissive side of myself and see where the rabbit hole goes.