I'm not looking for a cure...just effort. Trying goes a long way with me.

I have talked too much in the past about it, I'm hardly an angel. But I've been learning and changing the bad habits.

what crossed my mind is perhaps he's homosexual. I don't say that in any judgement, and perhaps I'm far too sexual to understand prudish to the point of not being able to put my tongue on my spouses most intimate of places... but that's what crossed my mind. Perhaps I'm way off base and I apologize- hope no offense is taken.
Absolutely none taken. If that were the case I'd want him to be happy. But honest, it's prudishness. He's very much pro-gay rights, but seeing two men together does nothing for him...nor two women either. Porn does nothing for him, while we're on the subject. He was raised by a conservative, loving mother and his parents were both very uptight, anxious people. He's relaxed compared to most of his family!

We have our ups and downs. I try to make the very most of the ups. Naturally, the downs come and so do the tears. I'm just glad I have supportive, understanding people to talk to. It brings back the focus of what I need to be doing, and not letting me stay in self-pity for too long. This was very strengthening.