Ruby, such sound loving advice.

Locked Advantages & Ruby, I'm sorry to hear of your experience, and the tragic effect it has had on your life.

I've read the threads
'Very worried that current DBSM is caused bu past abuse" and
'Sex Sex Sex...It's all about the sex'
and I recommend them. I have to hunt down the others suggested by TG and have a gander at them myself.

Also LA, you may want to try out Submissive Tasks in the Dungeon sometime. You don't have to have a partner, and you don't have to do tasks that would make you feel uneasy. It may be a way for you to get back in touch with yourself and your body. Its totally safe and totally non threatening.

Caitlin