I think this post addresses an important feature of the D/s lifestyle and a conflict that it present in many of us.
I am often a dominating character in everyday situations. In groups, I'll take charge and make decisions, I'll voice my opinion, I'll lead if a group needs leadership.
But in the bedroom, I'm a very different character, and there is nothing I love more than submitting completely to my Mistress. I feel it is a freeing experience, it releases stress, it takes me to a place that I can't get to any other way.
I'm also interested in the concept of 'topping from the bottom', and exactly what it means. Sometimes, though rarely, I find myself provoking my Mistress just a bit so that she hits or bites harder. Sometimes I like to set up situations, or make objects (I handmade a cane or our 1 year anniversary just last week) for her to use on me. Should I stop doing this? Does anyone else?