I've never actually had an orgasm that wasn't clitoral.. so yeah i played that game Don't get me wrong i kinda like em, just suffer the consequences later.

It's Endometriosis if any of you have heard of it, I am trying a drastic measure to see if that helps ( hysterectomy hopefully if i can con the dr. into it)

I think my main issue is that subconsioucly i'm scared of the potential of pain, so my body does not allow itself to get aroused easily.It can happen. but there are few and far between that have either the know, the drive or the patience to pull it off. My bf wants to but..... I have gotten him poking around here to see how he react to it all
To get things on a roll, i need to train my brain to stop freaking my body out, so to speak. There are times that vaginal sex is not painful. and i know there are an enormous pile of other fun things to do besides that even. If given the proper motivation.

And as there is lots of talk about the mental aspect here, and training i thought it may be a good place to start a discussion.

It's kinda frusterating (normally and especially after discovering this place )
To just want to be tied in a knot, thrown down and be ravaged beyond all comprehension, then when advances are made. Just go Meh, i don't feel like it.