I'll start by saying i haven't posted that much yet, but having been ready quite a bit.. The are a bunch of you guys that are an absolute hoot
Look forward to getting to know everyone better.

My dilema at the moment being the body not able to do what the mind has in "mind"
I have one of those fun girly diseases that make even a vanilla sex life all but non existant..

There is a 50/50 shot (being generous) that having sex is going to be painful (and not the good kind) and even having a orgasm leads to abdominal pain that can last hours to days..
It goes without saying that this sucks ass

So in general and especially in this kind of stuff.. a lot of the "wow this is hot" stuff comes from the mental side of things..
However for me there is always this seed in the back of my mind that is telling my body not to bother cause something gonna be in pain afterwords.

If my body would do what my mind is up for hot damn

Has anyone had similar issues, or any advise on how to mentally get past this.
It's wierd its almost like.. if i am talking about stuff or reading about stuff i can get all excited because i know there is nothing physical going to happen. thus no "bad" pain
But if it is in person i shy away, and its like performing a root canal to get me horny *sigh