Softly, as a relative newbie myself, I understand some of what you're going through. I see a similarity to some of your past, too. My ex was just critical of EVERYTHING that either I did, or our daughter did. (Don't eat so fast!, Gee you eat so slow!) It gets very wearing after a while. I've had to struggle financially, but I think she and I were both more relaxed after we split. Good luck in your search and your personal growth - it sounds like your head is on straight and you're headed in the right direction.