Slave Rule #9: i am nothing more than an object of great value - an instrument Master will use to draw out His pleasures.

I have a serious problem with being considered an object instead of a human being. Don't get me wrong! I love to be his fuck doll, ass fuck, etc., during sex. However, to be considered an object, no matter how valuable, implies that my feelings, needs, wants, etc., mean nothing. Although I love being used for Daddy's pleasure, I'm not sure that I could ever totally disregard my own wants and needs and be happy about it. It sometimes feels as if I'm already doing it, though. I've suffered from low self-esteem for almost my entire life, and this feels like a step in the wrong direction. I've had to learn to think highly of myself. Ha ha! What a joke! Anyway, this rule seems to infer that I don't need to think so highly of myself because Daddy is all that matters. While that might not sound so bad, I can't help but feel that any object, even one of great value, can become old, worn out, outdated or just plain boring. Look in any child's toy box. Things he wanted badly last year are no longer played with. What happens then? Most people throw away old things they have no use for, sell it at a yard sale or donate it to charity. Is that what I have to look forward to?