tina, firstly I'd like to say I'm sorry to hear you find yourself in this position, it can't be easy and I'm sure hurts deeply *hugs*

Now, this 'mistake' is not yours alone and he has as much responsibility in this as you do knowing he could not be a full-time Dom to you and your needs.

Yes, I have been in this situation (albeit online only) but the ending was known but didn't make it any less sad or emotionally draining as we both got in far more emotionally than either thought could possibly happen and we both knew he couldn't be mine as full-time as I required but 'settled' regardless because it was so great.

I cried for days. literally and still can't think too much about it without a terrible pain but we finally let the other go without any 'bad feelings' just a sadness that I still hope will go away one day.

If you can do it in person, obviously that would be the best but you also have to keep in mind that he likely already knows anyway - try to keep the good you have and leave blame at the door - neither is to blame, it just isn't what you need simply.

Good luck and I wish you the best of what is certainly not a happy situation