Hello all,

I need assistance.

I've been in a relationship with a Dom for approximately 5 months and this is my first real-time D/s relationship. We knew our time together would be temporary due to His obligations and responsibilities and as we could only see each other a couple times a month, however, our emotions have gotten involved.

Recently, I suffered a loss in my family and when this occurred, by emotions were understandably out of whack. I decided that life was too short and that I wanted to experience as much as possible as I've had a pretty rough time of things the majority of my life. That being said, I had the "collar" discussion with "my" Dom. He was very happy that I decided to accept His collar and we've been looking for one that I could wear at all times. By the way, we hadn't actually decided on a collar and that helps a bit.

Well, fast forward 2 months and once again I've come to the realization that I absolutely will never be a priority in His life. I thought I could accept that, but I can't. I take full responsibility for agreeing to accept His collar...I know it's best not to make decisions during any emotional times in my life, but I can't change the past.

I'd like to remain friends with Him and explain that I really need/want more than a less than part-time relationship. I know many have relationships where they see their Dom's only a couple times a month, but this does not work for me. I'd like to end this relationship as amicably as possible. Also, I'd like to talk with Him face to face as I think and this type of discussion via e-mail or IM may seem a bit cold.

I guess I'm asking Doms and subs how they've dealt with this situation.

Please, please, please try to be kind with your responses. I fully accept that everyone is entitled to their own opinions and I know by posting this type of question on a forum that I may be blasted, but what I face is going to be painful enough as it is. I just hope someone can understand what I'm going through.

Thank you so much for any suggestions.