punishment,pain or pleasure

[icey]

I need the pain, the humiliation the punishments as much as I need to be loved, to held, to cum.

With my previous in person Masters I have been known to go out of my way to have cause for physical punishment, am guilty of attempting to manipulate my Masters towards my own end

but isnt the pain humiliation and that type of punishment part of your play? not say a punishment because you refused to do the dishes or something?

whilst i might be spaced out on pain,humiliation,punishment during play those same actions given as non-play punishment hurt way too much physically,mentally and emotionally and they even make me feel sick.

for me feeling guilty,bad and disappointed isnt a very good prelude to playing anyway,whatever my love of pain.