BorderCollie...might have to visit your part of the world one day

Dea Menrfa...thank you, my hope was for others to see that it was ok to have these feelings, we can get past the hell we have lived *smiles*

Rowen MTP...yes a lot of emotions, more good than bad and I'm sure they will just get better as I write more

I am very happy that there are some out there who are able to relate to my story, I hope that some will gain the strength they need to become who they really are from reading this. Thanks again Zesty for encouraging me to do this.