real life!

[AdrianaAurora]

The reason my husband tells me He fell for me is because I dared to stood up to and didnt cow before Him. Ha! If He only knew, lol. The truth is, I was mortified, (that day and every day since), but I fake bravado real well, lol.

I never really digged the whole "pleasure from submitting" thing, I get pleasure from Him making me submit. True, I like pleasing Him, but thats like any other wife, I just have my own special ways, lol.
And yes there are days I feel like scratching His eyes out - they are called PMS.

With me I usually get depressed and really moody with everything else and He is usually in charge of patching me up; so in that sense it could come across as rose tinted. I lucked out in the fact that Tristan is so even tempered and disciplined, its so eerie that its impossible to translate into words, you have to meet Him - so that works well with my occasional temper tantrums and depression bouts.

One of my biggest fears,- and the reason I irritated the bejesus out off doms here with my questions, in the beginning - is that He feels like that, thats its all too much trouble. But somehow He managed to convince me that He doesn't, (at least for today).

He does get weary, and I get moody. Though I get moody more often than He gets weary. The good thing is, it never happens on the same day (my moodiness, and His weariness).

Life is messy, I am messy - are we or arent we 24/7 is a murky question, if you ask "professionals" they would say no, because I have a brain, a mouth and a job, and we don't play 24/7. But He is a dom and I am a sub personality and this is a part of our relationship, so pretty much anything and everything we do is bdsm, - that includes Him cooking dinner and me ripping a new one to people who cross Him.

Is it rose tinted, no (though today I am feeling rather perky). Believe me no one knows His faults better than I, and we wont even start on mine- but I still like Him, sorry.

Some days it (submission) does get too much, I wrote this entry http://www.bdsmlibrary.com/forums/blog.php?b=128 the day I was in a very dark, depressed mood, - He tried to play a shrink with me and He pushed me to far, so I feel for you.

Hugs
Adriana