You should reflect on why it is you seek submission to better know and understand yourself. When you are in discussions with a potential dominant partner, motives become very important. People submit for many different reasons, some because it turns them on sexually (bedroom submissives) and some because they are people pleasers (service submissives). Knowing why you're driven to submit will help to guide you and your partner in a relationship. As far as not wanting to know, if you can't be honest with yourself who can you be honest with? I'm thinking no one. If you can't be honest with anyone, including yourself, what is the point of all this, i.e. relationships, friendships, etc.?
A little introspection is warranted before embarking on any new chapter in your life. If you think you're asking yourself too many questions, just wait until you have a dominant partner who is constantly probing your innermost thoughts and feelings. Sometimes, the most dreaded question I've faced hasn't been "were you naughty today?" but rather "what are you thinking?"