When did you know?

[Ex.Ballad]

Yay! my first 'real' post

I've read a lot of people in different places here saying they came from a very strict household... I did not. I was a complete wild child; my mother practically encouraged my whims and my father couldn't bring himself to crack down on me, and i learned pretty quickly that i could misbehave and get away with it by being a darling for an hour or two once he blew his top. No one could stay mad at me, which was good news for me because I got myself into all sorts of trouble at school.

this also worked pretty well with boyfriends, too. one day i tried this on a guy i was seeing and got a smart spank for it. Never thought i'd ever be so happy to NOT get my way!

i wonder, though, if the way in which i DON'T want 'to be on top' but sometimes put up a bit of a fight for it (with the hopes that i'll lose...) is that fairly common? Is it unusual, particular to me? could it be explained by the fact that i didn't have much discipline as a child and so i'm always trying to provoke it out of people?

i strongly identified with peter pan and robin hood as a child: girl role models in the eighties were completely lost on me. for all that, however, i turned into a heck of a princess as an adult >.< all my games involved the daring adventures of Me and my inevitable capture at the bad guys' hands:
"so, you've taken our orb! where've you hidden it!"
"it'll take longer than you've got to beat it out of me!"
"we shall see!"

never wanted to stop playing that game. i just found extra ways to play it i guess...

[blythe spirit]

Yay! my first 'real' post
i wonder, though, if the way in which i DON'T want 'to be on top' but sometimes put up a bit of a fight for it (with the hopes that i'll lose...) is that fairly common? Is it unusual, particular to me? could it be explained by the fact that i didn't have much discipline as a child and so i'm always trying to provoke it out of people?

I don't know how common it is, ballad, but I know it's not particular to you. Discipline, guidance, control are things children need in my opinion and when they don't get that, I think they spend a lot of time seeking it out. I know I did by provoking men that I've been with. Hell, I still do it.