The following is taken from a post I made in another thread deling with this topic found by following the following link:

http://www.bdsmlibrary.com/forums/sh...ad.php?t=16077

i guess for me things really started the nite i saw my owner and his wife in a club downtown in the city where i was going to nursie nurse school, i was very intrigued by the collar and leash she had on not to mention the handcuffs, (it was a goth-industrial rave bar so her attire wasnt so out of place, i ran in to her needing help in the bathroom later that nite and gave her a hand after which i was invited back to thier booth, we had a great time, and i ended up going home with them that nite for a nitecap, it was the start of a wonderful relationship with them that was cut short when they had to move overseas (he was in the military at the time)

i had subbmissive tendencies before that but never had really pursued anything at all bdsm related before (they were goreans btw), after them i was kinda restless, and couldnt find anyone really into my kink, a brief relationship with a few different vanilla guys and girls,

i lucked up and found a domme quite by accident at work she had invited me out for drinks a couple of times and we got on well for a few months but she was way too militant anti-guy for me ,

then one day i kinda converted a nilla guy to the world of spanking my hinnie, but i had no real idea how to get him to dom up, finally we found an older dom that started to show us the ropes which for us was a mistake at the time as the old guy kinda swept me right out from under my bf at the time, he took me to fancy resterants, high level society balls, the sympony etc etc even a few bdsm play parties for the rich, showed me his stables (he was trying to groom me to be a ponygirl), it was lots of fun but i baulked when he wanted it to go to the extreme of like actually living in his barn full time with his brace of other girls (one of which was a friend of mine that hooked me up with him to begin with), he kept pushing and esculating the power exchange to fast for me so i ran off

i traveled for a while and took a big break from the scene

later i got burned out when i came back to the states and kept looking for the right guy or woman to dom.domme me, and allways falling shy of what i really needed, eventually i went online which didnt turn out very well at all (see the abuse victums support thread for that story), but ultimately it all turned out for the good as it eventually lead me back into the arms of my first and now current owner where i am today, a well trainned and satisfied girl keeping the k in kajira

who says yu cant find love
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