Jealousy

[denuseri]

Becuase your still a human being with all that entails regardless of which titular distinctions you wish to make or preconseptions about what being a "true" slave is and isnt all about.

[thir]

My question is that if someone is jealous can they ever get over it or are they always jealous? I want to be a true slave to my Master. I will always worship and serve him to the best of my ability and i will never stop trying to better myself for him. I love my Master unconditionally. That is what makes this so complicated because why am i jealous if i feel so stongly about pleasing my Master????

Becuase your still a human being with all that entails regardless of which titular distinctions you wish to make or preconseptions about what being a "true" slave is and isnt all about.

That is it. We are what we are.

You talk like loving unconditionally and wanting strongly to please also means that you can do anything. But that would mean that you could - by an act of will - wipe out all your previous years that made you who you are today. It does not work that way, don't you see?

Loving, wanting to please, jealousy, they are all there, side by side. They do not cancel each other out.

Maybe the first step would be not to agonize over whether you are a 'real' slave if you are jealous. Yes you are, because you are also still the human being you were before. My guess would be that it might be easier if you let the 'true slave' problems go, stop trying to be flawless, which only the Gods are, and start simply accepting that you have this jealousy problem, and that this is a natural thing to have in a lot of circumstances. Maybe it would free energy to focus on the problem itself.

My second thought is that one of the hardest things to unlearn in our cultures is the myth about the one and only. That you can only love, or care about one person. Therefore, if you care about more than one person, you cannot be serious about the first one, or they 'loose' something. This is simply not true. Your place in his heart has your shape, no one else in the whole universe can ever fit that shape. Only you!


My third thought is if it would help if you, on your side, also found another person to play with?

My forth is that if you search the net for poly lists you will find tons of stuff about jealousy, and how people handle it.

And my last is, it may be that you simply cannot avoid being jealousy. In which case you have a choice in front of you.