Hi

Help.

Im new to the lifestyle, since about spring, actually september really when my MAN became my live in b/f. Im slowly exploring my kinky and submissive side.

Slooooooowly getting comfortable adding other people to the mix, although my MAN had been eager for it, because he knows Im bi and have had a few experiences. Im shy, but I want to please him.

Well Friday night we had a friend of ours, and a few of his friends over, and we met this woman, I'll call her Bea. Bea is appart from her DOM and husband because of immigration, but she plays with his permission. And she was cool, and I just felt comfortable with her.

So we invited a bunch of people over for supper sunday night, but only her and her 11 year old came over... eventually we drove her son back to his grandma's for the night , but my son did not fall asleep. (and we're talking like 930 pm by this point) I put him to bed with a video and hoped he'd crash
while the grownups went downtairs.

Things get interesting downstairs, Im kissing Bea, were touching, all under the direction and care of my loving MAN. It was FABULOUS, but then we hear little feet upstairs.

I go redirect my son back to bed.

More stuff... kissing, fondling, sucking, touching...
Little feet.

And again and again, then things were really interesting we were both sucking his cock and touching each other, her hand was about to get into my pants ....and then my son walked right into the kitchen, which is the top of the stairs, and didnt want to sleep. And "I hear everything, the furnace and your tv, and everything...."

(there wasnt much talking going on, so he didnt hear anything explicit)

Most nights he sleeps from 8 pm on. Today he didnt. But I lost it. I started crying, I was horny, frustrated, and felt like I wasnt pleasing my guest or my MAN. Both my MAN and Bea were very understanding, but I felt very discouraged like its not ok to want what I want.

Today I just feel like I need over night sleep overs for him. Normally he has one a week anyway.

Just want to know how other parents handle this all. Im so new to this!!!!
Hell Im even new to dating /living with a MAN as a single mom. Never mind throwing another person into the mix.

Oh and my son talks about everything. No secrets. Hes a blabbermouth. Tells on me for smoking, drinking wine, everything even stuff thats not a problems. Its just his age.