So new and so lost

[Pandora's Box]

I'm new here and well, relatively new to everything. I began exploring this side of me about a year and a half ago online and in real life a bit. I've talked to several doms/masters online and a few in real life. I learned a lot about myself and about D/s from them. However... I always kept them at arms length as I was, to put it nicely, a bit dubious about an online attachment.

Well, something unexpected happened a month ago. I was in a yahoo chat room and I met a man (master). We began talking and getting to know each other. For a week we spent until the wee hours of the morning chatting and talking on the phone. He has been nothing but patient and kind to me. He is looking for an online relationship to move into real time. However he has not pressured me or tried to manipulate me in any way.

Anyway, my computer went defunked and for about 2 1/2 weeks I had no private access to a computer. And on top of that, mother nature decided to mess with the building he runs his business out of. He has had to close it for repairs and has been super busy trying to make some repairs and stem the tide of damage.

So even though I have my computer access back, he's been so busy that the time I looked forward to having with him hasn't materialized. We spoke on the phone for about a half hour yesterday and for a couple hours last Thursday. Now here's the part where I feel a bit selfish and whiney, but I can't seem to help it. Today was the one month anniversary of when we met. While I normally don't put any stock in one month marks... he does. And he said we'd be together on that day, but he's not here. And of course it doesn't help he broke a date the other night because he was working late trying to do some damage control.

We've shared many details of our lives, and we are open books to each other. Heh, if I were to compose a list of traits I want and don't want in a man, he seemmingly fulfills most of the list and then throw in a few bonuses. This whole thing has been confusing and yet magical. He makes me feel things I didn't think I could... And sometimes it's annoying as hell because I feel like a lovesick teenager. He's opened up so many avenues and I want to explore them, and indeed am anxious too. Patience has never been my strong point, but I am trying.

The last catch is that he lives across the country. However, neither of us are wedded to our home towns. He has said that if all goes well, then we'll meet in 4-6 months, just depending. Right now the moving thing is in the "we'll cross that bridge when and if we get to it" category.

*sigh* I'm sorry if it seems like I am rambling, but this has been building up inside of me and I don't really have anywhere to turn.

So here I am seemingly involved in an internet relationship and I don't know if I'm crazy or not to do so. I know there are many predators out there, and although I have not gotten any of those vibes from him at all... since it's the internet I still have to wonder if perhaps this is all too good to be true?

Thanks for reading this and for any feedback or opinions you share.