I really like being a good girl. It does something to me, for me. I would suspect that most subbies share my sentiments. However, sometimes... (I have just very recently realized I do this) I get so excited that I physically take some control back. When I get roused up to a certain point... this seems to be just what happens, what I do.

I am not sure how to stop this behavior in myself. When, for example, I really wanted the man to have control, but then I got so excited, so "wound up" and forgot myself (either in the kiss itself or during sex) that I took that control right back. Why would I do such a thing? Isn’t that spoiling the whole purpose? Does anyone else struggle with this?

I welcome any comments or suggestions from fellow subs, from switches or from Doms. And yes, I do realize that I could simply beg to be bound up tightly and THAT would take care of that… until next time anyhow. This brings me around to my little problem again.