owned puppy

I have been a sub for over 5 years now and for the first time I find myself questioning what it is that I want, what I need. It seems strange to me that all of a sudden I find myself thinking about something that for so long I never questioned. However, now that I find myself leaving a relationship of 4 years behind and starting a new one it has become more important that ever.

Even though I may be a sub I still have wants and needs that have to be met in order for a relationship to work. I take great pride in giving myself to my owner and know that I can trust him completely. But, at the end of the day it takes someone that ultimately wants the same thing as I do. Love just isn't enough. Finding your "soul mate" just isn't enough if you don't want the same things out of life.

I find myself transitioning to a new relationship seeking the commitment from him that was desperately missing from before. I love him dearly and I trust him. I just find myself lost in what it is I need from him. I came from a long distance relationship and now I don't remember how this is supposed to work. I'm not sure what I need from him on a daily basis. Right now I am just happy that he wants to know what it is that I want, what it is that I need so we grow, so we can really make this work.

This is a new dynamic for me. I find myself in a position where this time around I am the experienced one and I don't have the words of wisdom to offer him. I don't look at things from his viewpoint. I know as long as we keep open lines of communication that eventually everything will workout. Right now its about being completely honest with one another know that the other will never judge.